Waiting for you………

It is 10:40 and I am waiting for you ….. Turning back when ever I hear a sound expecting your sweet voice of calling out my name….. You often come here at 9:00, but today?? I am still waiting for you…..

I still remember the first day that we met…… you were looking very beautiful in that blue skirt and white top…. Your smile and those dimples….oh God!!… You walked just past me….. I can still feel your fragrance your sweet voice.. it still sounds in my ears….you were radiating energy… I was like u were pouring happiness where ever you went…..I have often wondered was it love at first sight?
I don’t know but u had made your mark on my heart….

10:50 man where are you? It’s getting colder and I am getting hungry .You were never late... what happened to you? Are you taking revenge of me for making you wait for me?

Do you still remember that Friday night? It was a cold December evening…. Around 1 year after I first saw you … by that time we were good friends…. You called me around 6’o clock and told me that you wanted to talk to me… you sounded so different… that was the first time I heard you so different.. You were so depressed… I had to attend a party at my friend’s house... he was going to US … so I said that I will meet you around 9:00 by the river side...
But… I was held up at the party… no I didn’t forget you … you were in my mind all the time…. Still I was delayed... and I could only reach at 11:00 … but seeing you I thought how fool I was … I should have canceled the party… your eyes were full and you looked so depressed… where was my friend who was so fresh and smiling always? Whose one look was enough to vaporize all my worries? As soon as you saw me … u started weeping… I dint ask you any thing and you just wept on my shoulders... that day you told me that this is the place you come when you are down and usually it does healing .And today it was too much and you wanted somebody to whom she can pour out her grief…. Oh maan I should have ditched the part… I don’t know how much time we sat there your head on my shoulder not speaking any thing …. U never told me and I never asked you why you cried…. But u did tell me that my presence meant a lot to you…..

11:00 The only sound is that of your favourite river…. Is she also missing you? Or is she also remembering the first fight that we had? How we argued over a silly point?

“YOU ARE SO MEAN ….” you said what my mistake was, that I forgot your b’day and didn’t wish you?
But I didn’t forget my friend’s b’day and gave her a little puppy as a gift? You were not speaking to me…. But dear how could I have explained to you that I have arranged for a surprise party for you that night? Should I have told you there and spoiled the fun? I still remember how angry you were... and how I literally dragged you to my home… and showed you what I had for you….. I still remember you face how it brightened... and you told…”I knew you couldn’t forget …. But I wanted to fight with you. I have heard that unless there is a fight your relation wont bind together… this is the only reason I got… sorry……” oh maan at that point I knew that I am really in love with you….

11:10 I checked my mobile .its working fine. Why didn’t you call me? I called you but I got the response “The number you have dialed is temporally out of service…” Are you so angry with me… what have I done? I only love you… loved you more than anything on this earth… still why are you punishing me like this?

“I love you…” u said. What I asked…. You again said “I love you...” I was boiling with anger… I had a bad day… my day was really screwed. It started with my car breaking down in the morning and then in office a heated argument with my boss… (I really hated him) then in the evening some quarrel with my friend… and in the evening when I met you I was full in frustration and was shouting at you for some silly ting and all you replied was “I love you..” well those 3 words did the magic… all my anger were gone.. You were so wonderful… You knew what I really wanted … what to do and how to do…. You were really a healer to all my problems… talk to you for 5 minutes … all my problem were gone… I had the best of my time when I was with you… you always had a different angle to any issues… my life had become so dependable on you…

11:20 should I leave …?? I will see you tomorrow morning. Then I can really tell you how it feels to wait in the chilling cold with your stomach crying for food… But still how can you not come of all days today?
Today the day I proposed at the very same spot….

You where just back from your 3 months training .You had cut your hair it was now just touching your sholders.You were wearing a yellow skirt and a light cream top. Your matching yellow ear rings added to the beauty. You were looking more beautiful than ever. You don’t know how much I had missed you in the past 3 months… As soon as I saw you I said “I can’t live without you… “I think it was the worst way to propose but I couldn’t control myself. It just came out of my heart… “Will you marry me??” I continued… I still remember how fast you accepted without a second thought and you said. “Did you have to ask that? You didn’t know that I had made the decision to live my life with you?”
And after that how fast the things went… from lover you became my life partner…

11:30 “Dad….” That’s a familiar voice… I turned and saw you are standing … but you were much younger… “Dad… what are you doing out in this cold?” oh that’s our daughter … she how beautiful she has grown? She looks just like you…. “Dad every one is waiting for you for the celebration and you are here …It has been 4 years since mom passed away and you come here daily? At least be with us today on your special day... every one is waiting for you….”

It was a day mixed with sorrow and happiness… how can I describe the day? It was the day when you gifted me the most precious thing – A little princes- but the day when you created a big void in my life … the day when you left me for ever… The doctors called it by different names… but that didn’t make any sense to me… I realized that in my life I will have the love of only one woman….

11:40 Dear I don’t believe that you had left me…. How can you when I need you... when I need you to make an important decision… I need you to support me when I am feeling down… I need you to fight with me… I need you to scold me… I need you to love me… I am here my love Waiting for you……………